Sunday, February 15, 2009 ' 8:47 PM Y
Alone now... alone outside... its a whole new experience... Uue feel so lonely, yet ueu enjog the ppl walking by, the events happening. I am reli clueless of wht to do ler. I hav a high chance of going to migrate to australia. By start of march, if my dad dun change his decision. i reli dun wish to live. Today i runaway frm home for the first time, i reli feel so hurt ler... i maybe wan go die... haix... he did this like 4 or 5 times ler... just leave audi and msn like tt. T.T i mean he is the guy lehx... am i suppose to go chase after him... i reli feel so damn hurt... I reli dunnu wht to do. Feel like ending my life so tt all this pain and hurt goes away. i rather die than migrate to australia. I also rather die then feel this pain and suffering. Maybe this is the end for us. There is a saying, 有一种爱叫做放手, maybe letting go is beta. I should let him go find someone who is more compatible with him. Who is not selfish, won't easily cry and feel sad, and not so demanding. I am a spoilt bitch. Not worthy of him. Now all i wan is to at least hear his voice for once. I will forever LOVE uue darling <333 But i hope uue go find someone else.
Friday, February 13, 2009 ' 11:09 PM Y
T.T Why is love sometimes so PAINFUL T.T although i get more happiness out of it... i also get pain that is so heart-breaking. Pls i dun wan to feel this pain again T.T its just too painful. Everytime uue say GoodBye... it hurts ... its like a burning, sharp sword piercing through my heart... I reli wish sometimes... we did nt even strt off chatting... cos the ending hurts me the most T.T Sometimes it does not hurt at all... coz he will accompany me until late at night when after i turn off the com i would just go to sleep... and the next day i would wake up talking to him again... but sometimes... the moment he leaves... i knw i will not talk to him for the next half a day or so... just that though alone burns my heart... so painfully T.T All i wish is to be able to talk to you in the morning until my school starts... after school when i am tired out by the lessons... and in the night... right before i sleep... maybe its too much i am asking... but i cant change it... and it realli hurts so MUCH to think of him and not be able to contact him ... so much pain... i guess Pain comes along with happiness... but the pain maybe too much for me... i hold on every week ... but i dunnu how long i can hold on... i just wish that this love we have would not have pain come with happiness... but maybe that's impossible. Now i feel so induced with pain... hope after writing it out... i wou't feel that much pain... I dunnu if i can sleep tonite...T.T I dun feel like doing anything now... i feel so empty... so meaningless... maybe would even be glad dying... Such pain is killing me... why... why ... why... he is always so tired... could uue not even give me the chance to enjoy a friday night with him... the onli night when we could chat through the night... I realli dun wish to talk to him unless i can be sure the ending is not so pain... for i fear the pain might just cost our relationship T.T ... ... ... *****In Pain***** *****Missing HIM***** *****EMPTY***** *****Lonely***** Wht should i do??? is there anything for me to do???
Monday, February 2, 2009 ' 10:25 PM Y
Sry Guys so long nvr post T.T Was super bz with school... so i was lazy to post hahas!!!
So actually the past 2 weeks has been super hectic for me!!! So many things to do T.T
My CNY was fun but tiring. Had to tok to relatives so many times. Haiz... But i got one FANTASTIC news!!!
My Dad say I can keep Glen as my boyfriend^^
I love My Boyfriend loads <33333
I also learned how to play showhand! hehes
But nowadays i so sleepy T.T
My relative always dun let me sleep until 3 or 4 am plus T.T
Then ytd nite i try sleep early, he go whack my arm until swollen T.T now my right shoulder injured!!! T.T
Valentines day is coming... i wish i cn go out b4 tt so tt i can spend valentine's day with my beloved boyfriend... but the chances are slim T.T T.T T.T
This week and nxt week will hav loads of test so i will be busy... Our cpl licence lvl 4 ler^^ soon will be lvl 5 then we cn try upgrade ring ler^^ hehe
I love love love my laogong, boyfriend loadxxxx <333333333
Muacks laogong <333
Ok gtg ler... laogong waiting for me to chat chat ^^
Buaiss <3
